The Little Joys in Life

As I left school today, I noticed these clouds. There was nothing particularly special about these clouds, but what struck me was the fact that I noticed the clouds. I also noticed the smell of the fresh-cut grass on campus and I noticed how blue the sky was. In class, one of my small group members asked the question, "What are you most thankful for in this last month?" I thought for a moment and then I replied that I was thankful for making the purposeful decision to care for myself while I complete medical school. Last year, there wasn't much joy in learning. My head was always down as I was always thinking about school or grades or my performance or comparing myself to my peers. This year, I vowed not to do that, and I am making time to notice little details about the world around me.

One of the most significant changes I've made is learning to appreciate the present moment. It's astonishing how easy it is to rush through life without truly experiencing it. Those clouds in the sky, the scent of fresh grass, and the vibrant blue of the sky—they're all there, waiting to be noticed. And when we take the time to notice them, life becomes richer.

Supporting Loved Ones

I've also started paying closer attention to the changes my wife is making in her life. Sometimes, amidst our busy schedules, we forget to truly engage with our loved ones. But it's these subtle transformations that make life beautiful. Taking the time to understand her journey has not only brought us closer but has also enriched my own life.

Rediscovering Passions

In the hustle and bustle of medical school, I had set aside some of my greatest joys—cooking and lifting weights. But this year, I've reclaimed them. Spending time on activities that truly make me happy has rejuvenated my spirit. The simple act of cooking a delicious meal or pushing my limits in the gym has a profound impact on my overall well-being. Eboni and I plan to compete in the PF Changs Rock & Roll Marathon in Tempe, AZ in January. What she doesn't know is that I want us to compete in the 5k that will be here in San Antonio in December!

Connecting with the Furry Friends

Playing with my cats may seem trivial, but these small interactions have a way of grounding us. Their unfiltered joy and curiosity remind me of the simple pleasures in life. Taking a moment to pet them or play with them provides a welcome break from the demands of medical school.

Prioritizing Health and Well-being

Perhaps the most significant shift I've made is developing a new, more respectful relationship with my overall health. Instead of viewing it as something to be neglected in pursuit of academic excellence, I've come to see it as an integral part of my journey. Enjoying what I eat again and making conscious choices about my health has not only boosted my energy but also my enthusiasm for learning.

Embracing the Joy of Learning

With these changes, learning is fun again. I appreciate being in school, but I appreciate being able to notice the world around me even more. Life isn't just about the destination; it's about the journey. And it's in the little details, the clouds, the scent of grass, the laughter of my cats, and the taste of a well-cooked meal, that we find the true essence of life.

So, here's to a new chapter in my medical school journey—one filled with self-care, appreciation for the world around me, and the pursuit of joy in every moment. Because in the end, it's not just about becoming a doctor; it's about becoming a more fulfilled and present human being.

Reflections on Resilience

Embarking on the medical school journey is a path filled with triumphs and tribulations. Here at the end of my second week of classes, I found myself reflecting on last year’s challenge that tested my determination and resolve. The setback of failing the unit 4 anatomy exam, after having failed the unit 2 and 3 anatomy exams, cast a shadow of doubt on my dreams, making me question if I had what it takes to continue this journey. The daunting prospect of repeating the year and the tantalizing thought of returning to my previous life as full-time university faculty loomed large. However, a series of experiences and revelations steered me away from the brink of giving up and has allowed me to emerge stronger, more resolute, and determined to succeed.

When the unit 4 exam results were released last year, I thought that I’d passed and would have the opportunity to remediate the units 2 and 3 exams. Successfully remediating them would have meant that I would have moved into my OMS-2 year. However, the news of failing the unit 4 anatomy exam struck me with a wave of sadness, disappointment, and self-doubt. The initial excitement and optimism I had carried with me into medical school were quickly overshadowed by feelings of inadequacy. Being told that I would have to repeat the year was a significant setback. It was during this juncture that I contemplated returning to my former, comfortable, and predictable life as faculty. I sought solace in familiarity rather than persisting through uncertainty.

Amidst the internal struggle, a profound discovery turned the tide of my emotions. After my mother passed on 17-July 2023, Eboni stumbled upon some of my mother's writings and prayers. I never knew that she was that interested in the personal, academic, and career goings on in my life, but her writings and prayers captured her unwavering belief in my potential to not only enter medical school but to become the physician she had never had the opportunity to be treated by. This realization struck a chord deep within me and reignited the fire of my initial aspirations. I realized that my journey wasn't just for myself but was a testament to the hopes and dreams of those who believed in me.

As I navigated the decision to return to my previous life or stick with medical school, friends and mentors emerged as guiding lights in my darkest moments. The outpouring of support, encouragement, and assistance I received from those around me breathed new life into my wavering determination. Their belief in my abilities and willingness to extend a helping hand rekindled my faith in myself. With their guidance, I began to prepare to repeat the year by focusing on studying anatomy during my summer break.

The conclusion of this second week has marked a significant turning point in my journey. A newfound sense of confidence has begun to bloom within me. The once-confusing concepts in anatomy and overwhelming academic pressure has started to recede, and I have a newfound sense of clarity and understanding. I don’t feel constantly behind. Astonishingly, I discovered that I am not only embracing the subject matter but I’m also beginning to excel in it.

Crucially, the start of this term has been marked by a profound shift in perspective regarding success and self-care. I have learned to liberate myself from the unhealthy habit of comparing my progress to that of my classmates. I have embraced the truth that success is a personal journey and cannot be measured solely by study hours or sleepless nights. Rejecting the notion that burning the midnight oil is the only path to success, I am prioritizing self-care, spending time with my wife, and having weekly check in’s with my brother-from-another-mother, Rob, recognizing their pivotal role in helping me to maintain both mental and physical well-being.

Central to this transformation has been the unwavering support of an incredible study partner. A former soldier like me, a devoted family man, and a kindred spirit, he understands the challenges of this journey on a deep level. Sharing a similar mindset, we not only push each other to excel but also provide the support necessary to overcome obstacles. His presence has been a source of inspiration, reminding me that resilience and determination are key to overcoming adversity.

At the end of this second week of medical school, I have found myself reflecting on the whirlwind of emotions, challenges, and triumphs that define this brief yet transformative period. From the brink of giving up to the realization that quitting was not in my DNA, this journey has been one of growth, resilience, and self-discovery. With a renewed sense of purpose, a network of support, and a newfound understanding of success and self-care, I embark on the rest of this term with confidence, ready to face the upcoming challenges and emerge stronger on the other side.

Research study: Sexual harrassment and sexual violence in U.S. medical schools

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🏼 Attention all allopathic (MD) & osteopathic (DO) medical students currently enrolled in a U.S. medical school! 🩺📚 Are you interested in participating in an important research study on sexual violence and harassment within U.S. medical schools? 🌟

My name is Daryl Traylor, and I'm a medical student at the University of the Incarnate Word School of Osteopathic Medicine (IRB Approval #2023-1425-EXP-v4). I am conducting a cross-sectional study to address the lack of comprehensive quantitative research on this issue and aim to promote a safer and more inclusive educational environment for medical students. 🎓✨

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